Title: Looking For
Notes: Sad little drabble that popped in my head this morning.
He tried to move on after she ran away from what was growing between them. They remained friends and for that he was incredibly grateful.
He tried dating other people, but the relationships never lasted. They weren't what he was looking for.
She dated others as well. The pain he felt every time she talked about her latest boyfriend only seemed to grow over the years rather than diminish. He didn't know what she was looking for, only that it wasn't him, and that was the worst pain of all. Each time she found somebody new, the fear that she would finally find it threatened to overtake him.
He kept dating, and to him, it didn't feel like a double standard, because he was looking for her, and that was something he knew he would never find.
Eleven years later, and my Pokemon fic "Crossing the River" is done. I dropped this story and picked it up so many times, I honestly thought I would never finish it. Years went by and it collected virtual dust on my computer and later on my Google Drive account. Last summer, I decided once and for all I was either going to finish it or drop it for good.
It was never meant to be a long story. It was a simple fluff piece about Ash and Misty becoming a couple. In my story "Dark Prophecy," I had planned on getting them together, but then realized the story wouldn't work the way I wanted it to unless they were already a couple at the beginning. My next Pokemon fic was "Words We Couldn't Say," and like "Dark Prophecy," it wasn't a very happy story by the end.
So I really just wanted to go fluff for a change of pace.
When I picked it up last summer, I was pretty much where I had been for the past several years, at about 12,000 words. I knew the basic outline of what I wanted to happen, but as I started writing in earnest, more and more scenes kept adding themselves. Then new characters arose, first as simple placeholders for a scene in which Ash and Misty would go to dinner, and then they stuck around, becoming important parts of the remaining story. Soon, the story had taken on a life of its own and kept growing.
Now it's done, or at least the first draft is. I've written three times as much in the past year than I did in the previous 10... and the story is now right around 45,000 words. It's the longest single piece I've written. They only thing longer was my script-formatted "Invasion" series I did for South Park, which was 13 episodes long and totaled around 50k.
I just finished my first full front to back read-through and fixing the corrections and changes. I'm now going to pass it off to a friend of mine who's read all but the last three scenes. I'm hoping to have it ready to post in the next week or two. Maybe. It's going to be hard to let this one go since it's been with me for so long.
Haven't been posting much lately (so what's new?), but I just wanted to pass along my hopes for all to have a Happy Holidays!